Advent: Day One

I've been procrastinating for a long time to write on my blog again. I closed it, changed its name, "redecorated it", posted, deleted... need I go on?...

- Why? the reader asked

- Fear!  I replied

Fast-forward to December 1st, 2017, it is almost New Year and revising my New Year's goals…I think I've done pretty well (I guess...), but when I inhale deeply and exhale profoundly ... that post it reminder haunts my heart. In yellow colour and pretending to be nice it has been repeating since January:

New Year's Goal 7

- Re-Start the Blog cest-la-vie-signorina.blogspot.com, now called thehenthatwantedtofly.blogspot.com, which is the title of the book I am writing The Hen that Wanted to Fly, will share more about the book later...

It was impossible to ignore it today again, that tricky yellow post-it glued to my computer monitor decided to team up with a flawless sunny-December afternoon in the San Jose Valley, framed by the white edge of the window, while my dogs enjoyed a cold breeze in the balcony. And so…

-       what is missing? the mind asked

-     an action! the heart replied

The moment took over and I started typing and re-writing many intros in English and Spanish, doubting, waiting… had a large cup of coffee and two small cups of Earl Grey tea, until I stopped completely. Fear was standing at my left-hand side, so close I could almost see it with the corner of my eye. I asked Fear to leave, it refused to listen, that was not new, it was the same attitude it had that one Monday morning in January, a Tuesday night in February, Wednesday afternoon in May, Thursday evening in June, Friday early morning in August and that rainy and cosy Sunday in October.

Then I thought, I am not alone, why do I insist on forgetting. Looked again through the window, the sun blinded my eyes ... and the moment was so quiet I could hear myself inhale and exhale. I wanted some help, so I asked. Honestly, I was expecting God would make some space within the clouds and in a Charlton Heston voice in the Ten Commandments send a rainbow-like ray that would type effortlessly this post. And it did… sort of… God made me pay attention to the heart’s reply …  in the most special Christmas way…

Love and do as you will

- St. Augustine

Today is December 1st... Twenty-Five days until Christmas, the commemoration of the birth of Jesus Christ.  That's it! even if we insist Jesus loving-reminder of the Christ-Consciousness should come up wrapped in a golden box with a red bow.

Fast-forward again... it’s now 6pm, almost time to get ready to go enjoy the Nutcracker Ballet Opening and although I want to prove fear right: - I can't!... something has changed I prayed and listened.

This year I've been doing the daily lessons from A Course in Miracles (ACIM), many of you know about the famous blue book, but for those of you new to ACIM it is a self-study curriculum to help us achieve spiritual transformation and embrace love. Well, it’s SO much more than that, but I let’s wait a while before getting too emotional.

- What did you pray for? the reader asked

- Love! I replied 

For Love is the answer to all prayers, and as written in ACIM: teaching the meaning of love, is beyond what can be taught, however, we can aim to remove the blocks to the awareness of love's presence, which is our natural inheritance. The opposite of love is fear, but what is all-encompassing can have no opposite.

So, I will blog for the next twenty-five days until Christmas, with hope and faith this Advent Season will remind me I am never alone and I merely need to trust that if I love, that Love will shine its light over fear.  I will welcome the re-birth of Jesus with a conscious awareness of this ever-loving, ever-lasting presence by giving… giving any form of kindness the day brings… for when we are kind we are Love’s hand and feet to do what Love needs us to do…

Anyway,... who said kindness can't be fun? JOY IS THE ULTIMATE CREATOR, so I am celebrating Advent with a Kindness Advent Calendar, I will commit myself to a small gift-teaching daily and share the story of how life humbles, teaches and loves me during the day.

The term Advent is a version of the Latin word meaning "coming", an  Advent Calendar is a special calendar used to count the days of Avent until Christmas, it is very popular in many western traditions and you can buy one or do it yourself

So, by publishing this today I will start, today is day one of twenty-five days of kindness…even If I do not have an advent calendar yet... I have Love and Love will lead the way…

Con cariño,

Paola